CHAPTER I- DOOR NOT DOOR

Here.

Squeaky floorboard announces my arrival startling

vaulted ceilings awake joyfully ringing back with my footsteps.

The sun streaming from the glass high above continues on undisturbed.

Dust motes continue their dance unobstructed. Uncontained sound rings on.

No, not just any abandoned house.

My life begins here. In this abandoned house of GOD.

Have you ever stirred something from scratch in the corners of your brain

that you thought had been long gone but they came back like a familiar memory?

You know, the brand new thought you’ve always had?

In this house, I lose everything I thought I knew about life.

Here I feel different. Hopeful. Transient dreams taking on new vibrance.

I shall find the Great Beyond. Transcend to something new.

We are here in the after-moments when you’ve asked so hard you’ve given up.

Forever leading you to the next clue that reveals all you’re searching for.

You are riddled with all of the ancient pains you repeat over and over again,

the ache in your chest is a reflection of that. Break away, try something daringly new.

Be a creator of your own curiosity. Turn your bones into matter not seen.

You have within you that which you want to become; grasp it.

Here I have come upon the one thing that will change my life forever: An open door.

The threshold between me and my desires seems infinitesimal. Too easy. Why now?

The door is not a door, but I can see the colors, secrecy betrayed by supersight.

Everything has a color painting my vision with layers of my own reality. I know.

Peeling wood paneling hides the way to everything I have ever wanted:

To escape reality.

Or so I hope.

It’s the time. Go straight through. Don’t look back.

CHAPTER I- THE BRIDE

Pathways flow dated following some windy tunnel of Great Escape

The ventures we dare not consider

The turns much too quick to contemplate

Splitsecond twists the kind that make you

forget about your headache

A purpose zeroes in in a gridlock closing in

no matter which way I choose to go

My entire beeline guided by the point piercing

the sky ahead blue in the strangest of colors

The hue of my sweater matching the royal fire

No star outshines this star when he decides

to say hello to all that he loves.

And here she is: faded broken down shutters

a bride in vine-stained white splashed by the

colors of the sky ahead, behind;

when I twirl she’s 360° all around me but the compass one

name on a map, one point on a satellite,

one run-down abandoned house looming into

the fading fire of the sunset,

silent hush God’s last whisper of farewell

before daylight takes over the darkness’s symphony.

And inside.

CHAPTER I- COME AS YOU ARE

Silly son you don’t have to be gone to become all that is,

Your fantastic treasure chases still live on in your chest,

It’s time to unravel the quest and remember what you came here to do

There is much, much more for you. Visible, indivisible,

Available to you every frame of every moment never stagnant

Always whitewater racing to the next best thing

You become what you are and you’re far, far behind. Tell you what,

I will give you everything if you let your past die.

I must give up everything I am not to become everything that I am.

I am not afraid. I am with you. I am that I am. I am eternal.

Death is not free. Life is free. Life is given, death is earned.

Life is the laughter in spring in unlikely persons meeting destiny

In life we find miracles and mysteries, questions and answers,

Always skipping to the next chapter to find out what happens next

There is no rest when life is good and tantalizing and sweet,

The dreams are good to slingshot you into the fantasies you want to

SEE in panoramic perceptions you didn’t know your eyes could give you

See Heaven and explore the playground you’ve been given

There is more than you can know. Now step on it. Let’s go.

Gotta grab my jacket.

Come as you are.